Photosynthesis

I've been on a downer for about 4 years, feeling depressed pretty much constantly; always finding new ways to be sad, new things to be sad about and new ways to say no. And now it's all just kinda washed away. I feel really positive about almost everything; like a new man.

"Why?" she asked.

Because I realised, finally, that all the things that were getting me down were immaterial. The past is just the past; people who fuck you over just aren't worth it; spilled milk is just milk; and if you can't look to the future and have just a bit of hope, then there's no point in looking anywhere, or in being alive. Because a life half-led is a life fully wasted.

So i decided to do just that; I looked to the future with hope and with focus; identified aspects of my life and of my self that I was unhappy with and I set about changing them. And it set me on a journey that I'd never seen ahead of me before; a journey into the life that I could always have had and that I will now follow. Perhaps not the most profound of journeys and perhaps nothing special in the grand scheme. But undeniably a better road to be on than the one I had previously been travelling. The rest is up to choice, chance and a little bit of luck.